Does anyone else watch Big Brother besides me??? I love that show!!! This year they are doing Big Brother All-Stars, where they bring back a bunch of previous season players. My favorite player of all time is Will... He is the best!!! Not because he's a liar or anything like that he's just entertaining to watch. Anyway this year I've been watching Big Brother and it really cracks me up but we play paintball with a guy who looks EXACTLY like Will. Please judge for yourself and vote for me whether you think they look alike. I think they're like TWINS...

This is Will from Big Brother



















Will from Big Brother on the Left
















Now this is the friend we play paintball with... Yea he's a little sweatier but give the guy a break he's been playing paintball all day! Oh yea he's the one on the left...















Ok so now you be the judge... Do you think they look alike or is it just me??? I'll be getting more pictures just to prove my point but this was the only one I had without a mask on ;)

Tonight I watched a news documentary on ABC about Andrea Yates. For anyone who doesn't know who she is here is some information on this woman.


Education and Achievements: Andrea (Kennedy) Yates was born on July 2, 1964 in Houston, Tex. She graduated from Milby High School in Houston in 1982. She was the class valedictorian, captain of the swim team and an officer in the National Honor Society. She completed a two-year pre-nursing program at the University of Houston and then graduated in 1986 from the University of Texas School of Nursing in Houston. She worked as a registered nurse at the University of Texas M.D. Anderson Cancer Center from 1986 until 1994.

Andrea Meets Rusty Yates: Andrea and Rusty Yates, both 25, met at their apartment complex in Houston. Andrea, who was usually reserved, initiated the conversation. Andrea had never dated anyone until she turned 23 and prior to meeting Rusty she was healing from a broken relationship. They eventually moved in together and spent much of their time involved in religious study and prayer. They were married on April 17, 1993. They shared with their guests that they planned on having as many children as nature provided.

Andrea Called Herself "Fertile Myrtle": In their eight years of marriage, the Yates had five children; four boys and one girl. Andrea stopped jogging and swimming when she became pregnant with her second child. Friends say that she became reclusive. The decision to home-school the children seemed to feed her isolation.

The Yates Children:Feb. 26, 1994 – Noah Yates, Dec. 12, 1995 - John Yates, Sept. 13, 1997 - Paul Yates, Feb. 15, 1999 - Luke Yates, and on Nov. 30, 2000 - Mary Yates was the last child to be born.

Their Living Conditions: Rusty accepted work in Florida in 1996 and the family moved into a 38-foot travel trailer in Seminole, FL While in Florida, Andrea got pregnant, but miscarried. In 1997 they returned to Houston and lived in their trailer because Rusty wanted to "live light." The next year. Rusty decided to purchase a 350-square-foot, renovated bus which became their permanent home. Luke was born bringing the number of children to four. Living conditions were cramped and Andrea's insanity began to surface.

Michael Woroniecki: Michael Woroniecki was a traveling minister from whom Rusty purchased their bus and whose religious views had influenced both Rusty and Andrea. Rusty only agreed with some of Woroniecki's ideas but Andrea embraced the extremist sermons. He preached, "the role of women is derived from the sin of Eve and that bad mothers who are going to hell create bad children who will go to hell." Andrea was so totally captivated by Woroniecki that Rusty and Andrea's family grew concerned.

Andrea’s First Suicide Attempt : On June 16 1999, Andrea called Rusty and begged him to come home. He found her shaking involuntarily and chewing on her fingers. The next day, she was hospitalized after she tried to commit suicide by taking an overdose of pills. She was transferred to the Methodist Hospital psychiatric unit and diagnosed with a major depressive disorder. The medical staff described Andrea as evasive in discussing her problems. However, on June 24 she was prescribed an antidepressant and released.

Spiraling Downward: Once home, Andrea did not take the medication and as a result she began to self mutilate and refused to feed her children because she felt they were eating too much. She thought there were video cameras in the ceilings and said that the characters on television were talking to her and the children. She told Rusty about the hallucinations, yet neither of them informed Andrea's psychiatrist, Dr. Starbranch. On July 20, Andrea put a knife to her neck and begged her husband to let her die.

Warned About the Risks of Having More Babies : Andrea was again hospitalized and stayed in a catatonic state for 10 days. After being treated with an injection of different drugs that included Haldol, an anti-psychotic drug, her condition immediately improved. Rusty was optimistic about the drug therapy because Andrea appeared more like the person he first met. Dr. Starbranch warned the Yates that having another baby might bring on more episodes of psychotic behavior. Andrea was placed on out-patient care and prescribed Haldol.

New Hopes for the Future : Andrea's family urged Rusty to buy a home instead of returning Andrea to the cramped space of the bus. He purchased a nice home in a peaceful neighborhood. Once in her new home, Andrea's condition improved to the point that she returned to past activities like swimming, cooking and some socializing. She was also interacting well with her children. She expressed to Rusty that she had strong hopes for the future but still viewed her life on the bus as her failure.

The Tragic End: In March of 2000, Andrea, on Rusty's urging, became pregnant and stopped taking the Haldol. On November 30, 2000, Mary was born. Andrea was coping but on March 12, her father died and immediately her mental state digressed. She stopped talking, refused liquids, mutilated herself, and would not feed Mary. She also frantically read the Bible. By the end of March Andrea returned to a different hospital. Her psychiatrist, Dr. Mohammed Saeed, treated her briefly with Haldol but discontinued it, saying that she did not did not seem psychotic. Andrea was released only to return again in May. She was released in 10 days and in her last follow-up visit with Saeed, she was told to think positive thoughts and to see a psychologist. Two days later, Rusty left for work and before his mother arrived to help, Andrea began to put into action the thoughts that had consumed her for two years. Andrea filled the tub with water and beginning with Paul, she systematically drowned the three youngest boys, then placed them on her bed and covered them. Mary was left floating in the tub. The last child alive was the first born, seven-year-old Noah. He asked his mother what was wrong with Mary, then turned and ran away. Andrea caught up with him and as he screamed, she dragged him and forced him into the tub next to Mary's floating body. He fought desperately, coming up for air twice, but Andrea held him down until he was dead. Leaving Noah in the tub, she brought Mary to the bed and laid her in the arms of her brothers.
During Andrea's confession she explained her actions by saying that she wasn't a good mother and that the children were "not developing correctly" and she needed to be punished.
Her controversial trial lasted three weeks. The jury found Andrea guilty of capital murder, but rather then recommending the death penalty, they voted for life in prison. At the age of 77, in the year 2041, Andrea will be eligible for parole.
Information gathered from http://crime.about.com/od/current/p/andreayates.htm


When I first heard of this tragic story I was shocked and couldn't believe someone could do something so horrible. Now the story is back in the news because Andrea received a new trial and was found Not Guilty and sentenced to a mental institution. I always felt sorry for Andrea because in a way I can relate to what she did. The reason she gives for what she did is that she didn't want her childrend to go to hell and she felt that she was a bad mother and they were going to go to hell because of her. I'm not at all saying I would ever consider killing my children so please don't misunderstand what I am trying to say. I pray for my kids everyday that I will be able to teach them right and I know this can be taken wrong but I would rather God take my children as children rather than see them grow up and reject him. However I am well aware that this is Gods decision to make not my own. He chooses who he chooses and I would never think of trying to make that decision that is Gods alone.

This is the only way I can relate as a mother to what Andrea did to her children. I really don't believe that she as some people say was overwhelmed and just wanted to be free of her children. In her interviews that I have seen I don't see that in her at all. I do think she was mentally ill and the love she had for her children combined with her low self esteem of her mothering skills and her fear of them going to hell all influenced her actions.

It really breaks my heart seeing Andrea's interviews. She is sick and as she gets better through medications she is is only going to come to a realization of what she's done and live a life of pain and regret. I pray we can all learn something from this tragedy. We should pay attention to the people around us. Andrea needed help and those closest to her seemed to ignore that fact. We need to pay attention and recognize the needs of others. I would hope that if I was ever in such a situation as Andrea's my loved ones would be there to help me and not ignore the signs and then abandon me in the end. Poor Andrea seems to have been abandoned by all those who were closest to her. She did a horrible thing yes. She should not be beyond forgiveness though. She needs our prayers.

Today was Emily's friend Lauren's birthday so we went to the pool for her birthday. I can't believe how many parents just drop their kids off at the pool unsupervised. I know there are lifeguards but they're not babysitters and they sure as heck aren't responsible enough to be babysitters.

When we first got there the cops showed up because someone's cell phone was stolen. So the kids got to watch that whole mess. Logan and Emily were doing ok swimming with Lauren and Gabby in the big pool but Brett had to be in the kiddy section and it was so annoying.... All the big kids were in the kiddy pool and Brett couldn't swim cause they kept knocking him down.

Then to top everything off Lauren got hit in the head with someone's swimming goggles and cut her head bad enough to need stitches. I couldn't believe it! And when we left the life guards were still ignoring all the kids throwing their goggles across the pool... I won't be visiting the public pool again anytime soon.

Yay!!! Look what came out of my garden! I am so proud :D I made salsa yesterday with the veggie's that came from my garden. It's been so hot this last week or so and the weeds are getting crazy out there so I still have some work to do but I'm just so proud I actually grew stuff!!!

Chris got home from work early today so we took the kids to the park. Our town doesn't have a good park so we drove over to another town where they have such a nice park. The kids got to feed the ducks and swans. It was really cool, at one point we were surrounded by critters wanting our crackers. Logan is so lucky he didn't get bit, he likes to try to catch the birds. We walked all the way around the pond and then stopped for a bit of swinging. It was a great afternoon as you can see from the pictures.

Some of my family is visiting from Utah. Crystal (Uncle Aarons wife), me and Toni (Uncle Abraham's Fiance') all went to Grandma Teerlink's house to visit. It was pretty cool to see Aunt Von and Rose. Uncle Lane was camera shy and wouldn't let me take his picture!!! I got a few sneaky side shots though :p They are all gonna come down Saturday and play paintball. I can't wait! It should be a lotta fun. Here's some of the pictures I took while I was there.

Grandma Ruby

Brett made a friend

Brett chillin' after a long day of playing :p

I love this picture of Grandpa.

The kids were all playing with Balloons this one was about as big as Brett.

From the left is Aunt Ruth, Tony, Crystal and Tiara

Lane and Rose surprised Teela with a piano for her new house :)

What a relief!!! We hosted a paintball tournament at our paintball field and it was a success!!! It was a five man tournament and we had eight teams show up to play. My husband Chris and I have been totally stressed out lately trying to get things all ready and we needed five teams to guarantee prizes so we were stressing out about that as well. You never know with these things what kind of turn out you're gonna get. We were very pleased with how things went and the event ran very smoothly. There wasn't much drama and no fights yay!!! I finished the DVD preview already and you can watch it below.



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HAPPY JULY 4TH

I took some pictures of the fireworks tonight. It was so cool the way they showed up on my camera. It was dark outside so I couldn't figure out how to change the setting to take action shots so I got the blurry effect. It is really cool though I like them that way. Watching fireworks with the family was a great time but I couldn't help feeling guilty. So many people died and are still dying for our freedom. God Bless America and our fighting men and women.

This is so cute. We went to Sonic for lunch yesterday. For anyone who doesn't know Sonic is a fast food place where the carhops bring the food out to your car. Anyway we went to Sonic to eat and were sitting there in the van waiting for them to bring out our food and I noticed this display in their window.

Sonic donated food for the elementary kids on their last day of summer school and the kids made thank you cards and pictures for them. It was pretty cute and I was just staring at them all while waiting for our food and then I realized...

This is Emily's picture! I made a really big deal about it and pointed it out to her and she was so proud! It was really cute. She was telling us all about Sonic donating the food and that the kids made cards to say thank you. She said there is a picture of a hamburger on the other side of her card. She was very proud that Sonic chose her card to display in their window and I had my camera with me so I snapped a few shots so she will always remember :)

YIKES!!! Anyone who knows me will know I LOVE to color my hair. I never really do drastic things but I color my hair every few months. Well this time around I decided I wanted a little less red and a little more brown. I wanted to go just a bit darker since color fades so much anyway. I figured this way it'd last just a bit longer. I also always color my hair myself at home. I save $50 each time and like I said I usually don't do anything drastic so I've had very few mistakes. I am not sure if I would even call this a mistake because it's not green or purple but it's a LOT darker than I intended. It doesn't really match my skin tone, at least I don't think so. It doesn't look absolutely horrible but it's just not what I was going for. I can live with it though and it will fade so in another couple months I'll try again. :)

I love Sundays! This morning I grabbed my camera to catch the kids as they were waking up. Brett beat me to it and started crying because I didn't rush over and get him out of his play pen fast enough. You can see the tears on his face in the pictures of him below.

Next I went to wake up Logan. He is the heavy sleeper of the family so he is the hardest one to wake up. He usually wakes up smiling though.

Then I woke up Emily. She was actually already awake by this time so I just took sleepy pictures of her.

After everyone got up we all got ready for church. It was really a great morning. There were no huge fights or anything dramatic that usually happens on a Sunday morning. It was just happy and peaceful. We even had time for me to get everyone to gather outside for a family picture. I love my new camera. It has a timer on it and I can set it to take our picture. So this is our newest family picture that I'm gonna have printed. I love it :)

By the way I've been meaning to do this but keep forgetting. My mom just started her new blog! Everyone should stop by there and welcome her to the wonderful world of blogging! She has lots of cool stuff to blog about too since she has me for a daughter and she lives in Hawaii :p Well the second part is true anyway. Everyone have a great day.

Have you ever had a really stupid fight with your spouse??? Yesterday morning my husband told me that he was out of socks. Ok! I got it. Well I didn't do any laundry at all yesterday. SO this morning I awoke to Chris griping at me because he was out of socks. I felt bad that I had spaced it the day before and not done any laundry. THEN I realized he was holding a pair of socks! He is sitting there holding "the last pair of socks" and griping at me because he told me yesterday he was out of socks and I hadn't washed any. So of course I was ticked off and I just told him I'd wash some socks today and I rolled over to catch a few more minutes of sleep.

This was one of those stupid fights that just didn't want to die... When I got out of bed five minutes later Chris was still grouching about the socks. Now keep in mind this is totally my point of view and I am giving you the low down on what happened. I am not "husband bashing" I want to get some advice on how in the world we can avoid these kind of stupid fights. If I'm wrong please lay it on me I need to know what behavior I can change to avoid these arguments in the future.

Ok so I am combing my hair and Chris comes into the bedroom and starts in about the socks. I really didn't want to talk about it so I told him that I was really annoyed because to me, this fight should never have happened because he has a pair of socks. If he wakes up tomorrow and has no socks, then fine GRIPE all you want but shut up for now cause you have socks. Then he tells me he was trying to apologize but was just trying to get me to see his point. Well to me if you apologize and then continue to try to prove a point that's not a real apology so I was even MORE mad.

Then Chris leaves for work and the phone calls start. He calls me to apologize and it begins again. He is trying to tell me how I said I'd wash socks and didn't wash them and I'm telling him how it shouldn't matter cause he had a pair of socks in his drawer. Now when we have these conversations about socks or whatever it is it makes me feel bad. I take it as him calling me lazy and I really take offense. I work hard even though I am no longer working outside the home. I have a lot to take care of all day long. It's not like Chris ever forgets to do something I ask him to. So I'm getting more and more angry feeling like he's insinuating I'm lazy and HE HAD SOCKS.

So I'm not really trying now to make things right cause I'm mad. The next phone call I'm a little more calm and I bring up the fact that Chris didn't put away the spaghetti from dinner last night like I asked him and things start to wind down. I can tell now that he is just sick of fighting. I feel bad now though because I had to bring up something that he "didn't" do to justify something that I didn't do. I see his point. The fact is that I said I'd wash socks and then I didn't do what I said. I was trying to have him see my point as well that I FORGOT. But why do I always have to be right? I couldn't just let go of my anger and tell him I'm sorry I'll wash some socks. I actually did say that at first but I wasn't in a very nice mood and just like a fake apology Chris could tell I wasn't sorry.

This was a stupid fight and I don't understand how it happened. I guess I could have ended it first thing by just saying I'm sorry I forgot in a humble tone instead of a "shut up I'll get it done" tone.

Emily had a great birthday! Saturday we did our normal paintball thing, she and Logan got completely dirty as usual :p. Then we had her birthday party yesterday. She had a lot of friends over and they did the pinata thing. It was really fun for them all.



Church last night was really great. Our pastor had to go to a visitation so we were just winging it ;) There was lots of singing and sharing testimonies. I really love to hear about the different ways Jesus has changed the lives of people I go to church with. Not just them but everyone. It will never cease to amaze me how powerful faith in Jesus Christ is. It makes me really feel so unworthy of his love. After all I've done wrong I just don't feel like I deserve his grace.

Afterwards we went to my Aunt Crystal's house. My Grandpa & Grandma Teerlink were there along with my Aunt Teela and Aunt Sonya. Chris brought his guitar and he was teaching Abraham a few things. Grandpa wanted us to sing so the lessons had to stop (thank goodness) :p We all sang and talked till like 10:30! Emily is skipping Summer School today cause she didn't get to bed until after 11:00. She made sure to ask me if they were still doing perfect attendance first though lol.

I am such a slacker :p I haven't been blogging much lately. I have a good excuse though. It's summer time!!! Who wants to sit around on the computer all day when you can be outside :D I've been busy keeping the weeds out of my garden and helping Chris on the paintball field. My garden is looking awesome. We even picked a tomato already! Brett ate it :p Everything is growing and looking great. The birds killed off some of my green bean plants... I only have two left and they got into my onions too. My green onions didn't come up at all. The cucumbers, peppers and tomatoes are doing great though.

I've been helping Chris work on the paintball field. We have air barriers on our speedball field and they are so dirty. We have been working trying to get all the old paint cleaned off them before we hold our tournament July 8th. So far I think we've done 10 bunkers so we have about 14 left to go. It's really hard work too. The old paint is so stuck on there we have to use oven cleaner and scouring pads to get it off. It's quite a chore.

Emily is turning 6 years old this Saturday. I think we are going to try to get her a swing set for her birthday. I planned her birthday party for Sunday and I wasn't even thinking that it was Fathers Day so I hope her friends still come. I know her best friend Lauren is coming and her cousins Damon and Devin so she'll have a good time no matter what. We got a pinata that they can beat on.

Emily is really having a great time in summer school. The last day is June 28th. They go to the pool every Monday and Thursday and Wednesdays they go on field trips. Today they are going to Predator World. I am not able to go with her on the field trips because they don't allow the little kids on the bus and it would be too difficult for me to take them in the van and have to keep them in line by myself. Mostly because Logan gets so excited around all the kids that he starts freaking out. I am really hoping preschool will be a good thing for him and help him to calm down some.

I've been having this ongoing yard sale the past couple of weeks. I really don't want to pack all the junk back into the basement and I need to sell my couch. It's getting old in a hurry, packing everything out in the yard every Friday. I only open the pawnshop for people to pick up stuff out of pawn. They call me and I set up a time to meet them down there. It is so much better that way because I don't have to sit down there all day and not have anyone come in. I think Chris and his Dad need to have an auction but I don't think they've decided what to do yet.

Things are going well and everyone is happy and healthy. That's something to Thank God For. :D

Here's some pictures from a paintball tournament we played Sunday.

Springfield Paintball 3 Man Tournament

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This is our field team Bombdiggidy. That's me in the middle.

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